There is a verse in the book of Psalms and I find that it speaks to me more and more lately for various reasons. What is the verse? It is Psalm 119:28. “My soul melts from heaviness. Strengthen me according to Your Word.”
You may be wondering why that verse of all the amazing ones in Psalms? It’s because it reveals a place that I think we – those of us seeking Him- have to get to so we can see through His eyes the things He wants to reveal to each of us in the place He has placed you in. Why do you think you are alive at this time, living in the city, state, country you are in? It’s because our wonderful Father, the lover of your soul said this was the time for you and your purpose.
Now I know we seem to be redundant with prayers like “Oh God what is my purpose?”, “Show me what I am suppose to be doing”. And yet…. it’s in each of us. Deep down we know what we are created for if we truly look inside. It’s to bring Him glory, glory in our words, thoughts, actions as we walk this daily grind.
Now, if we go back and look at this verse for what David is saying and we look at our own heart, what heaviness is weighing you down?
For me, it’s waiting and praying for years that my husband would be healed, would see his worth, would look beyond his physical weakness. It’s standing on my Father’s promises day after day for him. Knowing that he is already healed and whole – we just don’t see it yet – but knowing that he is because Jesus already has it handled.
It’s looking at my grown children and seeing one of them struggle with identity, depression, loneliness, suicidal thoughts and yet…. I see who the Father has created this one to be. He is the most talented, smartest and loving of all three of my boys, and he doesn’t see any of this. So I stand. I stand on the Father’s promises for our children, generations to come. I fight the enemy knowing that my fight is me standing beside my Lord and Savior and that He has already won – I may not see it yet in front of me but I stand and I know.
It’s leading the organization that I am so honored to be a part of…. it’s a part of me that my loving Father allowed me to join Him in. It’s praying for His wisdom and knowledge, the responsibility I don’t take lightly. It’s loving my “flock” and bearing with them in arms to stand in this crazy country we are living in but knowing that we stand beside the greatest Warrior – Jesus Christ. And so we stand, locked arm to arm, on our knees, ready to follow, listening and being obedient to His commands. and even though at times it’s so in our face the struggles this is, I stand, on promises, in faith, knowing that I know, that I know.
Re-read this verse, “My soul melts from heaviness. Strengthen me according to Your Word.” We will stand according to His Word and watch as He strengthens us when we just don’t have the strength within us on our own.
Father God, Lord Jesus, Holy Spirit, I praise you even when and especially when my soul melts from heaviness. Let my words, thoughts and actions reflect this especially when it’s hard. I pray for those who are in the same boat as me, I pray that they will find Your Word for them – the ones that You hand pick for them to gain strength in, Your perfect strength. And Lord, please let them know we stand together, they are never alone….. we are all a family and family sticks together. I love you Lord…. so very much. Thank you for allowing me to be alive on this earth during this time and place. In Jesus name ~ Amen.